WANNA GIVE P ON LIFE?

OK. IM STUCK I HAVE TWO KIDS AND CANT FIND A JOB TO SPPORT THEM I AM ON WELFARE BUT WANT TO GET OFF BECASE IT NOT ENGOGH TO CARE FOR MY KIDS ONE WITH DISABLITIES. I SWEAR I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR JOBS AS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND A CNA WHICH I HAVE EXPERIENCE IN NO LCK I GOT SIX INTERVIEW LAST WEEK NO ONE HIRED ME. I HAVE NO FRIENDS. MY FEELNS AND HEART HAD GOT BROKEN FROM A STREET GY THAT SED ME SO RAW. EVERY MORNING I GET P I FEEL LIKE DIEING. MY KIDS DAD TRN HIS BACK ON ME MY FAMILY HATES ME Y I DONT KNOW. I FEEL CONFSED AND STCK I JST NEED A JOB ANY JOB SO I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS AND PAY MY SCHOOL BALANCE OFF, BT IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING I TRIE TO DO SOMETHING ALWAYS BLOCKING ME TO GET TO MY GOAL. I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING P. ITS VERY HARD FOR A SINGLE MOTHER WITH A DIABLE CHILD. JST NEED SOME ADVICE. I FEEL LOST CONFUSED ABOT MY LIFE